Existential Crisis
I had always considered it a fleeting thought, but it's not. I'm currently 22 years old, and just yesterday, I felt a certain dread that gradually grew as the day came to a close. I thought of it as one of those days when you feel kind of lonely, so I did what I had always done, writing. But it didn't work, the feeling was still there. I don't know how I should communicate this feeling to my family; I rarely talk about my feelings to them. So, I talk to a safe and comfortable place, my girlfriend.
I talked my ass off! She tried to understand me, by asking questions about what was in my mind. I told her I didn't know - in that I was simply confused, and it scared the hell out of me. I came to realize that when you have an existential crisis, you just have to communicate this feeling to somebody. Reaching out to somebody is not going to be easy, but technologically you have some options.
The feeling caught me off guard. I just want to share this out there. It's a heavy feeling.